Ahoy!

Obviously, I haven’t been saving. My money is Here There and Everywhere. Definitely channeling The Beatles and this is not good. I thought I will surely have a good sum kept for emergencies and such but it’s a rain check on that too. Looking back, there’s the chicken pox disaster, kitchen chaos, grocery crisis, celebration extravaganza, braces fixtures and out of town/in the metro hang outs that were unavoidable. In short, I’m a big over spender. Fast forward to today, I’m close to (again) being penny-less. Just a couple of weeks ago this happened:

Although it was fun and all that jazz, it slashed my budget when I could have saved it for let’s say another week of market money. But let’s carry on. 

Chillax mode at work (for now) and work mode at home. That child is a burst of energy. This was her OOTD during Tri’s 18th birthday celeb:

The countless back-and-forth crosschecking of every retail outfit paid off. Such a simple joy. I remember missing Ante Ne this day and how glad and proud she may have been seeing how a grown-up lady Tri has become.

Role playing is fun.

Everything is way out of hand, but I’m too tired and drained to even care. So much for planning for your life. I don’t even feel like I’m working towards a certain goal but just working for the sake of living and getting by. Time was never on our side, and it continues to be our nemesis. Must. Not. Concede.

On cooking

You see, I don’t cook. I was determined to just relax and rock and roll. I have my then boyfriend now fiance who cooks kickass-never-before-heard (I have never before heard) meals so why bother? However, I started to watch more shows from our neighboring countries (ahem K-drama/J-drama, TLC, et al) so it’s inevitable that I also learn about their food. I kind of wanted to experience at least part of their culture through their food as well. I want to personally experience why they love Tteokkbokki, for example. So I made one.

Thanks to friends who cook, it’s easier to learn how to prepare and where to look for ingredients. Good thing, too, we have groceries and international products in our local grocery stores. So far, I have tried (tried is the keyword here, not necessarily that it was a success): again Tteokbokki, California Maki, Buttered Chicken in Garam Masala, Martin’s Bonchon Chicken, Chicken Ensillada and Quesidilla, Samgyeopsal and ahhhh Gyduon. The endless browsing for THE recipe that’s easy, detailed, great feedback from readers, (with photos!) has now paid off.

Again, I don’t cook. Sadly, like in music, I can’t recognize notes through hearing, thus, I can’t tone my own guitar. I can’t even sing in tune—but that’s a different story. Point is, in cooking, I don’t know how food tastes while they’re being simmered or boiled or grilled or whatever. I can’t imagine the flavors brought about by each of the ingredients. I’ve heard them say to add salt to bring about the taste of whatever it is that you’re cooking make it fish, beef, pork, etc. But how much? After adding it in, I don’t understand the taste, I won’t be able to tell what’s the missing ingredient or flavor so yeah, bye! I don’t know if I’ll be able to learn about it eventually but ANYWAY. Since I wanted to post pics in FB eat the food I’ve watched over somewhere, I decided why not prepare and cook it myself as long as it’s EASY as in EASY to make. And TADAAA, we have Gyudon. It’s not THE best but at least I (emphasis on I there) was able to cook it.

I’ve learned that it would be easy (for me) to learn about cooking if I first try it over recipes and menus that I really wanted to try and eat (again as long as it has easy to follow instructions—and I have budget to buy the ingredients). We’ll see if I’ll be able to keep up with this cooking. So far, it’s geeewd.

Still drooling over this meal. Tomorrow, lemme try the Samgyeopsal (again).

Friends for 16 years and counting

 

 

Friends for 16 years and counting, i think. You gotta love friends!

Summer of 2014

I’ve said it recently (was it yesterday?). I think my body is taking its toll on me. Those years of working every night, less sleeping hours, not eating right, not drinking enough water, not taking any vitamins…now my body is so weak I would have to blame no one but me. Because every time I decide on what to eat, I choose on what to do and sadly I chose poorly for roughly over 10 years now. I may have made brilliant decisions to keep the family alive but ignored what my body needs. I know now. I will do better. Strike 2 on chicken pox, not cool. 

Playing event organizers

@Pico de Loro/Punta Fuego, Batangas 

 

 

 

Let's go to the beach beach

Burot beach escape, 26Aprl2014

  

 

 

and the thing is

it’s the last time.

the sad thing is, you’ll never get to see her again. you’ll never get to hear her loving voice, feel her warm touch. that corner of the house will be like an empty space without her presence. the photos, a reminder that she did happen. she was with you. you were with her. she smiled. she was happy. she was here. although it pains your heart, knowing that her sufferings are gone somehow you’re comforted. somehow you feel that it’s okay. somehow, it feels that it’s the best thing that have happened. goodbyes were never easy. letting go is the hardest. remembering is bittersweet. if you didn’t care, it won’t be this hard. fortunately you did that’s why your heart breaks little by little every time you’re reminded about everything about her. it will happen over and over. you may breakdown and cry every now and then, maybe even later on in your life. but it’s okay. because there was love. let love carry the weight of sadness. let love be your light.